> From: mjolly@entergy.com

> To: vianet@i-2000.com

> Subject: leiomyo survivor

> Date: Wednesday, May 14, 1997 1:49 PM

>

> Kent,

> I just left your web page and felt the urge to share my story.

> I was diagnosed three years ago this August after going to a

> dermatologist to remove what I thought was a wart just below the

> knuckle on my left pinkie finger. He burned it off and sent it

> for analysis. I left thinking that was the end of the wart. Two

> days later he calls back,tells me to come in.

> You are well aware of the torment I went through the next few

> days. I was referred to a specialist in this field in Little Rock.

> (Scott Dinehart UAMS oncology) Scott tells me his largest fear at

> this point is that it could be attached to the bone. We proceeded

> with surgery with the assistance of a bone specialist. Scott

> performed something called a 'mose procedure' or something like

> that, where he removes a circle of skin, analyzes it there in the

> surgical room under a microscope to determine if any of the outer

> edges have malignant cells. If they do he takes another circle

> around that area.

> The outcome of my surgery has been completely positive. Scott

> explained that if it comes back, it will most likely come back in

> the same area. My last follow up turned out to show me to be as

> healthy a person I could expect. I am a runner and I spent more

> time giving him running shoe advice than we spent talking doctor

> patient business.

> Like you, I wanted to get all of the information I could find on

> this cancer. I never imagined the word cancer being used in the

> same sentence with my name. The original diagnosis had a much

> greater impact on my life than that of the actual cancer will

> probably ever have. My malignancy was found much earlier in its

> stages than yours was. Even so, now that I am a 'cancer survivor'

> I am always having second thoughts about any suspicious lump,

> swelling or aches and pains that a cannot specifically link to

> running.

> Almost three years have gone by, I am in better shape than I

> have ever been in, I have run three post cancer marathons, and even

> started training for this years triathlon season. With all of

> that, I still have concerns that I guess will never go away. My

> doctors do also. My wife took this much harder than I did and we

> have only recently begun to talk about how to cope with these

> feelings of anxiety and fear of the big C word.

> Initially I was eager to change my eating habits to include many

> supplements as you have stated that you take. It seems that with

> every item on the market you have a person telling why this item

> will save your life and another person telling you why this item is

> a waste of money. I became skeptical about most all of it. My

> eating habits weren't that bad before I was diagnosed. So I

> haven't really changed much. I don't eat red meat. I mainly eat

> boiled chicken, lots of rice pasta and vegetables. I drink skim

> milk, juices and lots of sports drinks and water. The only

> problems I have is becoming protein deficient twice in the last

> couple of years due to the lack of dead carcass in my diet. I

> usually buy a container of that protein powder and mix it with my

> milk as I begin marathon training. Other than that I take an

> aspirin, and a single supplement daily. I will certainly consider

> listening to any claims you are willing to make about the items you

> are taking.

> I don't know how much reading you do or if you read about other

> cancer patients, but if you do I recommend the following -

>

> "Did I Win?" and "Going the Distance: One mans journey to the end

> of his life" Both books are about George Sheehan he was a

> cardiologist and of course a runner. The last one was authored by

> him.

>

> "Time on fire" by Evan Handler, he was treated at Sloan memorial as

> you were. His memories of the center were not quite the same as

> yours. Evan is an actor from N.Y. He tells a pretty graphic story

> but it certainly is an excellent read.

>

> I look forward to hearing from you and thank you for giving me

> some place to write my depressing thoughts down.

>

> sincerely,

>

> Mike Jolly mjolly@entergy.com